This was the last day of my fast.
I just couldn't take the fast anymore. To be honest I can't say that I regret anything. The fast was hard on me physically and I'm glad it's over. Most of the time I felt sick, feverish and tired.
Don't get me wrong: I'm glad I did it and am grateful for these 15 days, but am happy they are over. I broke the fast with a bit of broccoli and some DIVINE soup. The taste of food after a fast is so good it's almost worth fasting for just that experience.
This morning I weighed in at 87.7 kilograms (215.3 pounds)
At the start of the fast I weighed 97.7 kilograms (193.3 pounds)
I know it looks suspiciously neat, but I swear on my mother's eyes it's true.
Right now I'm just enjoying the feeling of energy making its way through my veins, out to my cells.
The original plan was to do a 30-day fast and I think that's part of why I lasted this long. Shoot for the starts and hit the moon.
Thank you for reading, my friend!
Tuesday, June 9, 2015
Monday, June 8, 2015
These little doubts of mine
Today was the first day of the entire fast where I was close to quitting. I got in bed after a six-hour drive and just got so tired of feeling tired. Since about day three I've felt like I'm depressed, or fighting off an infection or something. I mostly want to be left alone and watch netflix.
This feeling of weakness is very uncomfortable to me. My body was always my source of safety. I've been a boxer and I've been in the army. A great deal of my life has been spent making my body a safe-house. This unability to enjoy life and to be enthusiastic about things is really wearing me down.
I thought it'd be the hunger or the cravings that'd get me, but it's not.
I don't know. I'm just really sick of feeling sick. I'm not breaking the fast today, but the question has gotten into my head: Is it worth it?
This feeling of weakness is very uncomfortable to me. My body was always my source of safety. I've been a boxer and I've been in the army. A great deal of my life has been spent making my body a safe-house. This unability to enjoy life and to be enthusiastic about things is really wearing me down.
I thought it'd be the hunger or the cravings that'd get me, but it's not.
I don't know. I'm just really sick of feeling sick. I'm not breaking the fast today, but the question has gotten into my head: Is it worth it?
Water fasting: Day 14
Today was easier. I spent most of the day in a car and that's strangely comfortable when you're fasting.
Spent the last few days with my sis and her family. On the way back to my dad's place I visited my grandma and my aunt. Always with the eating. When you're fasting you'll get a new hobby: Watching other people eat.
My dad keeps hounding me about spiritual experiences I should be having. I was hoping to have some of these, but so far: Nothing.
No hunger but a desire to eat. Still nausea, still tired.
TMI section:
I have completely lost my sex drive. Pretty girls don't do anything for me anymore. That's an interesting experience.
My urine is dark and I try to drink a lot of water, but it doesn't seem to change anything.
This is a strange one: My farts don't smell.
Happy fasting!
Spent the last few days with my sis and her family. On the way back to my dad's place I visited my grandma and my aunt. Always with the eating. When you're fasting you'll get a new hobby: Watching other people eat.
My dad keeps hounding me about spiritual experiences I should be having. I was hoping to have some of these, but so far: Nothing.
No hunger but a desire to eat. Still nausea, still tired.
TMI section:
I have completely lost my sex drive. Pretty girls don't do anything for me anymore. That's an interesting experience.
My urine is dark and I try to drink a lot of water, but it doesn't seem to change anything.
This is a strange one: My farts don't smell.
Happy fasting!
Sunday, June 7, 2015
Water fasting: Day 13
I hear people talking about muslims fasting. Staying away from food for 12 hours? I do that on accident every once in a while. When I say 13 days, I mean 13 x 24-hours. The real pangs of fasting don't kick in until after 48 hours, so... you know... I'm not saying Ramadan is not a fast, but really? Reeeeeally?
Last night I kept having nightmares about eating. It's not like I don't want to eat, but I kept finding myself with a piece of pizza in my mouth thinking "Oh yeah! I was fasting. CRAP!"
I hear people with anorexia gain some sort of pleasure from the sense of starving. I have some good news: I'm not anorexic.
I wish there was some please derived from this, but I'm just tired and bored most of the time.
Still no real hunger, the nausea is subsiding.
When I worked as a correctional officer I talked a lot to heroin-addicts and they'd tell me the worst part of quitting heroin is not the physical part, it's the boredom of living a normal life.
That's not a very cheerful way of ending this, is it? I'll do a weigh in and new pics tomorrow. That'll be fun!
Happy fasting!
Last night I kept having nightmares about eating. It's not like I don't want to eat, but I kept finding myself with a piece of pizza in my mouth thinking "Oh yeah! I was fasting. CRAP!"
I hear people with anorexia gain some sort of pleasure from the sense of starving. I have some good news: I'm not anorexic.
I wish there was some please derived from this, but I'm just tired and bored most of the time.
Still no real hunger, the nausea is subsiding.
When I worked as a correctional officer I talked a lot to heroin-addicts and they'd tell me the worst part of quitting heroin is not the physical part, it's the boredom of living a normal life.
That's not a very cheerful way of ending this, is it? I'll do a weigh in and new pics tomorrow. That'll be fun!
Happy fasting!
Saturday, June 6, 2015
Water fasting: Day 12
Spent last night in a hotel. Very nice. Because my need for sleep has decreased it wasn't much of a problem to wake up at seven to keep traveling.
There's no real hunger. I don't have headaches. The big problem is the fatigue. I'm just drained most of the time.
Usually when I fast there's some dizziness, but that hasn't been an issue this time around.
I smell like nail polish-remover. It's a side effect of fasting. Really, it's the smell of ketones (what the body excretes when it's burning fat) so I should enjoy it.
Not much else to say.
Happy fasting!
There's no real hunger. I don't have headaches. The big problem is the fatigue. I'm just drained most of the time.
Usually when I fast there's some dizziness, but that hasn't been an issue this time around.
I smell like nail polish-remover. It's a side effect of fasting. Really, it's the smell of ketones (what the body excretes when it's burning fat) so I should enjoy it.
Not much else to say.
Happy fasting!
Friday, June 5, 2015
Water fasting: Day 11
Day 11 and I wish I didn't feel so tired. Someone asked me to test my cholesterol and I'll try to get that done next week but I took my blood pressure today.
117/71 with a resting heart rate of 65bpm.
Pretty good if I may say so myself.
I'm tired as hell and I suspect this will not ease up until I eat again. I keep hearing people say that you get energized at a certain point, not me. Anyone out there with experience of a longer fast that could shed some light on the issue?
My sense of smell is super sensitive. This morning I smelled a bottle of Sriracha and it felt like I'd dipped my head in the stuff. I literally flinched.
That's about what I've got today.
Happy fasting!
117/71 with a resting heart rate of 65bpm.
Pretty good if I may say so myself.
I'm tired as hell and I suspect this will not ease up until I eat again. I keep hearing people say that you get energized at a certain point, not me. Anyone out there with experience of a longer fast that could shed some light on the issue?
My sense of smell is super sensitive. This morning I smelled a bottle of Sriracha and it felt like I'd dipped my head in the stuff. I literally flinched.
That's about what I've got today.
Happy fasting!
Thursday, June 4, 2015
Water fasting: Day 10
It's official! This is now the longest water fast of my life.
I feel fine. My mouth still has that strange coating that makes me brush my teeth every chance I get. Walks are nice, but they're slow, short and exhausting.
I weighed in at 89.9 kg (198 lbs) yesterday. Not going to weigh myself for a few days, since I'm so happy to be below 90 and don't want to see any strange fluctuations that might occur (I have gained weight from one day to another during a fast before. I know it's only water, but for a fat guy it's still unpleasant to see)
Sleeping is still hard. Something strange I've noticed is that my body has a much harder time holding on to water. Not that I pee a lot, but that I constantly get thirsty. I don't drink an entire glass, like I usually do, but just a sip. Still, I crave that sip pretty bad.
My guess is that it's a combination of all the glycogen and salt that I've lost.
All in all, I keep fasting like a champ.
Happy fasting!
Wednesday, June 3, 2015
Water fasting: Day 9
I'm bored. It gets worse because of the lack of energy. It's not like it was a few days ago where I was tired all the time. It's more if I do something, like take a long walk, I get tired, but sitting feels fine.
Don't know what else to write.
No hunger, mild nausea
Happy fasting!
Don't know what else to write.
No hunger, mild nausea
Happy fasting!
Tuesday, June 2, 2015
Water fasting: Day 8
Today was maybe the easiest day of the entire fast.
Last night was really hard as far as cravings go. The fact that I couldn't sleep did not help.
I can't tell if the fatigue is there, since I only took about 2000 steps today. Compare that to the 20 000 I took yesterday. Still haven't left the house and it's eight o'clock at night. I don't feel too tired anyway.
I took a few pictures of myself this morning, to compare to the pictures I took at the start of the fast. Crap! Still got a lot of fasting left to do.
On the upside, I'm adorable!
Happy fasting!
Last night was really hard as far as cravings go. The fact that I couldn't sleep did not help.
I can't tell if the fatigue is there, since I only took about 2000 steps today. Compare that to the 20 000 I took yesterday. Still haven't left the house and it's eight o'clock at night. I don't feel too tired anyway.
I took a few pictures of myself this morning, to compare to the pictures I took at the start of the fast. Crap! Still got a lot of fasting left to do.
On the upside, I'm adorable!
Happy fasting!
Monday, June 1, 2015
Water fasting: Day 7
Today felt better. I'm still pretty weak. I discovered the game Hearthstone on my android tablet. That made passing the time and thinking about something else a lot easier.
The urge to eat is not hunger; it's some stupid obsession with pleasure. I can go without. It's fine.
Had a few old injuries flaring up again. I'm cheering my body on: "Heal that elbow like nobody's business!"
Happy fasting!
The urge to eat is not hunger; it's some stupid obsession with pleasure. I can go without. It's fine.
Had a few old injuries flaring up again. I'm cheering my body on: "Heal that elbow like nobody's business!"
Happy fasting!
Sunday, May 31, 2015
Water fasting: Day 6
The fatigue is getting ridiculous. I tried jogging this morning and I simply had to give up after two kilometers. I was SPENT. Took a walk in the afternoon and after maybe three kilometers I had to lean against a tree. I know it will pass but for now I'll enjoy the preview of my 70s.
No real hunger. Stomach still growling. Must rest, can't... make... complete... sentence.
Happy fasting!
No real hunger. Stomach still growling. Must rest, can't... make... complete... sentence.
Happy fasting!
Saturday, May 30, 2015
Water fasting: Day 5
I'm a lot more tired today. There have been some strange physical sensations: An old injury on my right fore arm has started to ache. Hopefully that means it's healing.
Last night my stomach kept growling and being upset. My body is eager to get everything out. One wouldn't want half digested food to fester in the gut for 30 days.
I took a walk with my dad, but after that I've been exhausted. Strange feeling, being this weak.
All in all I'm good and fasting like a champ.
Happy fasting!
Last night my stomach kept growling and being upset. My body is eager to get everything out. One wouldn't want half digested food to fester in the gut for 30 days.
I took a walk with my dad, but after that I've been exhausted. Strange feeling, being this weak.
All in all I'm good and fasting like a champ.
Happy fasting!
Friday, May 29, 2015
Water fasting: Day 4
I'm not hungry. The cravings come and go, but they don't feel like hunger, more like abstract impressions. I'll just be walking around and suddenly the taste of rice crispies with milk, cream and strawberry jam pops into my head.
It's hard to see others eat and I can feel my instincts waking up when I sense the smell of food.
I have a lot less patience. Small things get me angrier than they should.
I'll get over it
Happy fasting!
It's hard to see others eat and I can feel my instincts waking up when I sense the smell of food.
I have a lot less patience. Small things get me angrier than they should.
I'll get over it
Happy fasting!
Thursday, May 28, 2015
Water fasting: Day 3
It's day three and I feel tired.
It's not a sleepy kind of tired, but more of a I-need-to-sit-down-for-a-while kind of tired.
Still no close calls as far as eating is concerned. I notice how I'm crabbier than usual. The hunger is gone. It's been replaced by a subtle feeling of nausea. Thankfully that's easier to handle than hunger.
Keep going strong
Happy fasting!
It's not a sleepy kind of tired, but more of a I-need-to-sit-down-for-a-while kind of tired.
Still no close calls as far as eating is concerned. I notice how I'm crabbier than usual. The hunger is gone. It's been replaced by a subtle feeling of nausea. Thankfully that's easier to handle than hunger.
Keep going strong
Happy fasting!
Wednesday, May 27, 2015
Water fasting: The first few days
So this is where the journey begins. I'm doing a 30 day water fast.
This means
- no food
- no juice
- no nothin'! (well, there will still be water, but you get my point)
For 30 days.
Now, why would someone do this to themselves? I've got a couple of reasons. For one:
While fasting the body heals. I know this might sound strange but look it up. While fasting many people will have aches from old injuries, and then find the injuries to be healed. I have had this happen to me during previous fasts.
For another, I've gotten fat over the last few years and need to unaddict myself from some very unhealthy eating habits. At the start of the fast I weighed in at 97.5 kilograms.
Then there's the spiritual aspect. I need to do battle with my own weakness. It's got to do with self esteem and a belief in my ability to follow through.
I'm at day two of the fast and right now I'm lying in my bed, unable to sleep. I went to be around midnight, then woke up at 2:30 in the morning and haven't been able to sleep since. While this is a little annoying and completely out of character for me (I usually require a good 9 hours) it makes me happy. This is a sign that my body is responding to the fast.
My longest fast to date was ten days and the same thing happened then: After the first two days I only needed a few hours of sleep per night. From the research I've done it looks like the body just uses an insane amount of energy to digest food. When this is not done anymore you just... don't need that much sleep.
How do I feel?
The first day was fine. I wanted to eat, but there were no close calls. I made up my mind and in my experience that's the only thing that can carry you through: You have to decide that this is what you're doing and that nothing will come in your way. As soon as you allow that belief to shake, even just an inch, you're hours away from giving up.
Day two, well, since it hasn't really started I don't have much to report, other than I didn't sleep so I had time to make this blog, and that's nice.
Happy fasting!
This means
- no food
- no juice
- no nothin'! (well, there will still be water, but you get my point)
For 30 days.
Now, why would someone do this to themselves? I've got a couple of reasons. For one:
While fasting the body heals. I know this might sound strange but look it up. While fasting many people will have aches from old injuries, and then find the injuries to be healed. I have had this happen to me during previous fasts.
For another, I've gotten fat over the last few years and need to unaddict myself from some very unhealthy eating habits. At the start of the fast I weighed in at 97.5 kilograms.
Then there's the spiritual aspect. I need to do battle with my own weakness. It's got to do with self esteem and a belief in my ability to follow through.
I'm at day two of the fast and right now I'm lying in my bed, unable to sleep. I went to be around midnight, then woke up at 2:30 in the morning and haven't been able to sleep since. While this is a little annoying and completely out of character for me (I usually require a good 9 hours) it makes me happy. This is a sign that my body is responding to the fast.
My longest fast to date was ten days and the same thing happened then: After the first two days I only needed a few hours of sleep per night. From the research I've done it looks like the body just uses an insane amount of energy to digest food. When this is not done anymore you just... don't need that much sleep.
How do I feel?
The first day was fine. I wanted to eat, but there were no close calls. I made up my mind and in my experience that's the only thing that can carry you through: You have to decide that this is what you're doing and that nothing will come in your way. As soon as you allow that belief to shake, even just an inch, you're hours away from giving up.
Day two, well, since it hasn't really started I don't have much to report, other than I didn't sleep so I had time to make this blog, and that's nice.
Happy fasting!
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